That nervous feeling can be so helpful in a race.. but NOT when it’s coupled with fear, stress, and crippling anxiety. I’ve been in situations where I can hear and feel my heart beating in my ears. My stomach feels like it’s at a weight that’s heavier than my body can handle. its brought me to tears.. it’s made me crawl and hide underneath one of those big digital clocks that they put right next to the track that give you the times 😂(I know it’s not really funny but that’s an actual true story)... I’ve thought to myself “this isn’t fun, why am I here”..? . Many of you have reached out to me to ask how to deal with those horrible feelings. I wish it was as easy as saying “just have fun”... a piece of advice I have been giving many times. Yup. Doesn’t work. . I’ve been working so hard on this. I’ve asked SO SO SO many people how they deal with stress, and really looked into how and why I find myself being overcome with anxiety when I’m competing. Though there are so many different reasons for the brain to be doing what it’s doing of course, one thing has helped me that I want to share with you. . Over my years, I’ve heard things like “wow, look what you did, you are incredible!” And “you won? You got a personal best?? You are so wonderful and great!” OF COURSE those are all such nice things to hear, but I began to subconsciously feel that my performance in track DIRECTLY correlated to my individual worth. Seems silly... but wow. It was real. . I’ve put all of that into conscience perspective. Track isn’t who I am. Track is something that I love to do. Competition isn’t a test of my worth, but just a game I like to play. I will continue to work as hard as I can to be as successful as possible at it, but only because I enjoy it. . I love this journey. I love this sport. But I know now that it doesn’t define me. . Whatever your hardships are, ask yourself who you are and what is important to you. But no matter what.. you don’t need to be perfect to be worthy ✨❤️. . . So sorry for the long post ✌️ love you all! Take care of you and the once’s you love! . . . . #lovelife #followyourdreams #roadtodoha #mentalhealth #youvegotthis
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